Some dreams never come true!!..

Hello guys..hw have u been...did u ever realise that hw many of ur dreams have come true...welll lets cum directly to the point..i am here to mention abt a of-dream of mine..which dint come true..
aah ...lets get into the past....
2 YRS backs..me stuti ....kota ki galiyon mein,morning 6 am..gettin ready for the classes....shit!!!still i am late...its 6:15 am now....n nw i have to have my breakfast ..n i havnt put my books inside my bag...so ill be reaching at 6:30 am...oh god again there wud b a big hue and cry for the seats...!!!!!!wateva..now i hafta run to allen.........me walkin n walkin....physics i ahve to complete mechanics by 3 days...bio have to study ecology,revise animal kingdom..chemistry gosh havnt started wid inorganic....nw inside allen....sHIT I FORGOT TO BRING MY iCARD..NW WALKIN wid the crowd stealthily so that noone sees me..m widout the card..the managers specially..

what da f**k..i want to get out of it...its been ages since i m living in same ridiculous condition..still i have a dream in my eye..dream to better...dream to be a winner...hw fool i was at that time...or it was the blind love of mine towards my ambition...madly deeply to get into aiims...ha ha ha ha.....dint deserve it..to b honest!!

well......those moments r so bad...that i dnt wanna remember them too..they are not worth remembering...

some old memories..of my defeat..of my faults...of my carelessness..i shud rather say coz the time was not in my favour...!!watever it was...i want happy..even after putting all my efforts i was not even getting the 1%of wat i rightly deserve..!!!

this often happens to me...initially i dun get rewarded of myh deeds..but finally i get the bulky award wid da bonus even!!..i had just forgotten this thing bcoz of my continuous defeats...so i wud just urge myself not to forget my natural qualities coz of the synthetic atmosphere...i should not forget how my fragment is like...it was my mistake that i forgot my real myself!!bcoz i was frightened of many people...especially by my own nearones...i wante to be successful anyhow...but this is not the way it should work like..i have to be my natural me!!to be successful anywhere ...else i shudnt be there bcoz the place doesnt suits me..but i dint had any other option rather than being there n bearing those bullshits life was playing upon me...poor me!!

but u know god is always there to help me out..hez da one who twisted my life ..n wanted to see if i could be a good player in dis condition,but he saw me confused n helpless..so he gifted me something which i am really happy with..love u baba..!!thnank you god...but now that lesson that god has taught me that stuti i am with you..i am there to fulfill all ur dreams,you just need to work hard for it..give ur 100% an dfor the rest ..i am here na..ive learned that i have to do nothing ...just than giving my best..for rest god is there..hez der..he knows the best for me..s dats what i am doing these days..me is giving my best..life without challenges seemsto be very boring and lazy for me..so again i have accepted a big challenge..bigger than cracking aiims i think..n i am working hard..wholeheartedly for it..nw to b continued

no time for love........

ok...THIS blog is specially dedicated to someone special in myh life n moreover who has made my life even more special!!!!...i really want comments on dis blog of mine..bcoz improvement is the thing which i always believe in...
So..typin about him...my heart is filled with love and gratitude...my sweetheart friend...whoz always been there...throughout the ups n downs of my life..honey it wud really be a rare chance that u wud read this blog of mine...i wud not be happy rather if u read dis...coz there r many untold truths n i dnt have plan to tell them either..
hmmm...so talkin about my handsome hunk.....hez one of the smartest guy ive ever seen..the very first time i saw him..i was like ..this guy is only for me!!!!!!..i still remember that day...me preparing hard for pmt`s...he drudgin hard for IIT`s...nw am being nostalgic..
so sweetheart...u really dont know wt wonders uve done on me...its just coz of u...dat am awake 1 am in da nite..n reckoning abt u..missing u like anything...each moment ive spent wid u is so very precious for me..n uve been someone whoz played roles of so many relations....uve been like my fiend,bestfrnd,boyfriend, father brother(dont laugh)..hez guided me like them...everything.
its now 3 years that i am maly in love with you..but i wud neva tell u dis sweetie coz i knw therz nt a future possibility for us of being more than friends ..{for readers:its coz hez an engineer n m a doctor)..my parents wud go for a medico match..n i cant afford to break their heart for anyone..uve been always proposing me but its difficult for me to say yes...
doesnt matters...but u wud always remain as my first crush!!....n true love..
i remember those teeenage days..goshh..wohi yaadein...dat time me was a small girl who dint knw wat luv is...only used to feel disheartened..n bad...wen she dint used to c u for days...n whose start used to smile seeing one site of urs..every single moment i spend wid u...is so special..u r the person who bought colours in my life...ur smile,energy,intelligence,stupid talks,feku behaviour,love for me....especially the patience has drived me crazy.i am ur admirer..u know i am in love with you...!!..muahhhha..thnx for being in myh life!!n one more thing u r so handsome...and u knw wat i lost myh heart ,a 3.5 yrs back,the very firSt time i saw u...n seriously ive not yet got it back...luv u....
Urs STUTI

love me or hate me.....

so,here i am...wanted to tell many things..many hidden qualities of mine,many fascinating things abt myhself...people often at first glance consider me a simple innocent indian girl..nah..nothing wrong..am simple but often they dont come to know abt my potential coz i dnt believe in showoffs..n thru the passage of time...they explore my qualities...which fascinates them towards me or drive them off in the opposite path..the j factor(jealousy) may be there...wateva ..i dun care...
i am nw a young woman of 20..n wen i luk back...i just have 5-6 good friends who are girls...while i have 15-20 good friends who are guys..despite of having studied in a girls skul n being over reserved widthe guys...
watever...i want to be helped by my friends...doesnt matter if they are guys..i am not at all gender biased..hmmm but i do get hurted...even after havin such long terms wid my frnz(gals)..they dont even care...been good to them..been supprtive in watever the conditions wid them had bee...no attitude despite being successful than dem..girls get me wrong coz i have more frnds who r guys...but i cant help it...its been 3 yrs since i m being flooded wid proposals..many of guys who r my goodfrnds wanna b myh bfs..since ages they`ve been waitin for my yes...is dat the reason 4 wat they tend to b myh frnz...dat means the day ill get into serious affair..even they wud betray me...
watever...the point is if i am good to others y r they not dat good to me..ive been successful only coz of myh hardwork n helping attitude..y dont they just try to do the same..therz no point being jealous...
well therz still a lot to do...just wanna say love me or hate..i wud always b da same stupid sweet stuti..ready to help n care for others...dats myh promise...!!!!