aah ...lets get into the past....
2 YRS backs..me stuti ....kota ki galiyon mein,morning 6 am..gettin ready for the classes....shit!!!still i am late...its 6:15 am now....n nw i have to have my breakfast ..n i havnt put my books inside my bag...so ill be reaching at 6:30 am...oh god again there wud b a big hue and cry for the seats...!!!!!!wateva..now i hafta run to allen.........me walkin n walkin....physics i ahve to complete mechanics by 3 days...bio have to study ecology,revise animal kingdom..chemistry gosh havnt started wid inorganic....nw inside allen....sHIT I FORGOT TO BRING MY iCARD..NW WALKIN wid the crowd stealthily so that noone sees me..m widout the card..the managers specially..
what da f**k..i want to get out of it...its been ages since i m living in same ridiculous condition..still i have a dream in my eye..dream to better...dream to be a winner...hw fool i was at that time...or it was the blind love of mine towards my ambition...madly deeply to get into aiims...ha ha ha ha.....dint deserve it..to b honest!!
well......those moments r so bad...that i dnt wanna remember them too..they are not worth remembering...
some old memories..of my defeat..of my faults...of my carelessness..i shud rather say coz the time was not in my favour...!!watever it was...i want happy..even after putting all my efforts i was not even getting the 1%of wat i rightly deserve..!!!
this often happens to me...initially i dun get rewarded of myh deeds..but finally i get the bulky award wid da bonus even!!..i had just forgotten this thing bcoz of my continuous defeats...so i wud just urge myself not to forget my natural qualities coz of the synthetic atmosphere...i should not forget how my fragment is like...it was my mistake that i forgot my real myself!!bcoz i was frightened of many people...especially by my own nearones...i wante to be successful anyhow...but this is not the way it should work like..i have to be my natural me!!to be successful anywhere ...else i shudnt be there bcoz the place doesnt suits me..but i dint had any other option rather than being there n bearing those bullshits life was playing upon me...poor me!!
but u know god is always there to help me out..hez da one who twisted my life ..n wanted to see if i could be a good player in dis condition,but he saw me confused n helpless..so he gifted me something which i am really happy with..love u baba..!!thnank you god...but now that lesson that god has taught me that stuti i am with you..i am there to fulfill all ur dreams,you just need to work hard for it..give ur 100% an dfor the rest ..i am here na..ive learned that i have to do nothing ...just than giving my best..for rest god is there..hez der..he knows the best for me..s dats what i am doing these days..me is giving my best..life without challenges seemsto be very boring and lazy for me..so again i have accepted a big challenge..bigger than cracking aiims i think..n i am working hard..wholeheartedly for it..nw to b continued
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